Well, I don't know. I'm trying to push her away from me but everytime I do so, it feels like I'm just fooling myself and making myself believe that I don't feel anything for her.
But the truth is, I STILL LOVE HER! I love her more than anything in the world!
Please help me convince myself that we're just friends. Nothing more, nothing less! Please, help me!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I's Sick
I'm sick. And I mean really sick. Its been two days now, and I think I'm not doing okay. I really don't know how I got this but I think its due to the weather. Its been freezing here. I'm still trying to adjust.
Body Temperature Record:
Day 1 -
5:00 am - 38.0 C
9:00 am - 38.0 C
1:00 pm - 38.9 C
5:00 pm - 38.6 C
9:00 pm - 39.4 C
Day 2 -
1:00 am - 39.6 C
5:00 am - 38.9 C
9:00 am - 39.2 C
1:00 pm - 38.9 C
Body Temperature Record:
Day 1 -
5:00 am - 38.0 C
9:00 am - 38.0 C
1:00 pm - 38.9 C
5:00 pm - 38.6 C
9:00 pm - 39.4 C
Day 2 -
1:00 am - 39.6 C
5:00 am - 38.9 C
9:00 am - 39.2 C
1:00 pm - 38.9 C
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
We're okay now
We are friends. Thats for sure. No more, no less.
Its been a while since my last blog post. I was so busy that i had a fever last week due to severe cold. Now, I'm back.
So, what happened during the past few weeks?
I had a fever (I think I already said that? :D), and i was bed ridden for at least two days. Good thing I have Simone here with me and he took good care of me.
I passed my basic subjects and hopefully I would be able to pass the first term.
I have a new FACEBOOK account (yey).
Now, about my new Facebook Account, I really didn't plan to have an account but my batchmates is so annoying that I have no choice but to make one.
Now, while filling up my profile, one question made me stop and think as to what should I write. The question reads: Relationship Status.
Whoa, come to think of it! My first option was "Complicated" but then I decided to just place "In a Relationship". Then there's a follow up question: "With whom?". Bingo, X marks the spot! Without anything in mind, I immediately placed her name! And that was the biggest mistake I did!
When I clicked Save, I didn't noticed that it will send a so-called "Relationship Status Invitation" or something to the person whom you asnwered as the person where you have a relationship.
By that time, we were already Chatting when she told me that she received the invitation. I was dumb-founded and didn't know what to say. I just told her to cancel in but she said that its okay. She neither canceled it nor approved it.
Well, I just hope she'll approve it! :D
What else, thinking, thinking, thinking.
Oh, I'll be visiting my batchmates hopefully at the end of the term. I'm sure by then, it would be safe for the planes to travel!
Oh and Jae Ha will visit me next week! Horah!
:D
Its been a while since my last blog post. I was so busy that i had a fever last week due to severe cold. Now, I'm back.
So, what happened during the past few weeks?
I had a fever (I think I already said that? :D), and i was bed ridden for at least two days. Good thing I have Simone here with me and he took good care of me.
I passed my basic subjects and hopefully I would be able to pass the first term.
I have a new FACEBOOK account (yey).
Now, about my new Facebook Account, I really didn't plan to have an account but my batchmates is so annoying that I have no choice but to make one.
Now, while filling up my profile, one question made me stop and think as to what should I write. The question reads: Relationship Status.
Whoa, come to think of it! My first option was "Complicated" but then I decided to just place "In a Relationship". Then there's a follow up question: "With whom?". Bingo, X marks the spot! Without anything in mind, I immediately placed her name! And that was the biggest mistake I did!
When I clicked Save, I didn't noticed that it will send a so-called "Relationship Status Invitation" or something to the person whom you asnwered as the person where you have a relationship.
By that time, we were already Chatting when she told me that she received the invitation. I was dumb-founded and didn't know what to say. I just told her to cancel in but she said that its okay. She neither canceled it nor approved it.
Well, I just hope she'll approve it! :D
What else, thinking, thinking, thinking.
Oh, I'll be visiting my batchmates hopefully at the end of the term. I'm sure by then, it would be safe for the planes to travel!
Oh and Jae Ha will visit me next week! Horah!
:D
Monday, March 29, 2010
Messenger
I just had my latest Y!Messenger with her. I wasn't about to reply with her message but I was attracted by the fact that her profile picture was with somebody else. So I replied with her message. Here's the complete transcript:
jaefenyoon: hi
jaefenyoon: who's he?
dark angel: he's a close friend of mine who just graduated from college
dark angel: and who's she?
jaefenyoon: looks like you're too close with each other
jaefenyoon: i mean
jaefenyoon: literally
jaefenyoon:
dark angel: hehe. and it you, with that girls seems literally close too
dark angel: *alisin mo na yung it
jaefenyoon: she's a close friend also
jaefenyoon: same with yours
dark angel: is she your fiance?
jaefenyoon: is he your borfriend?
dark angel: nope. defntly not.
jaefenyoon: just the same
dark angel: hehehe. so what have you been doing lately?
jaefenyoon: nothing
jaefenyoon: just studying
dark angel: business related course i guess?
jaefenyoon: at last
dark angel: at last? hehe
jaefenyoon: at last
jaefenyoon: i get the chance to take my own course
dark angel: which is?
dark angel: so? have you been blogging after your 1st blog?
jaefenyoon: no
dark angel: why?
jaefenyoon: just dont feel like to
dark angel: you lost interest in posting
jaefenyoon: its not that
jaefenyoon: i just dont feel to
dark angel: i just thought you created a new one. and maybe by chance i could read it so that i would know what happened to your life. but i guess you dont have one
jaefenyoon: it would be better if you wont know if i have a new one
jaefenyoon: how about you?
jaefenyoon: you still blogging?
dark angel: nah i've lost my drive in posting to my blog
jaefenyoon: may i ask why?
dark angel: i dunno. sigh
jaefenyoon: okay
dark angel: di ka na ngrply sa emails ko b4. hehehe
dark angel: iniiwasan mo si mga hapot ko dmn? hehe.
jaefenyoon: you and your friend look good together
dark angel: it would really look good if it is you hahaha
dark angel: banat alert!
dark angel:
jaefenyoon: please
jaefenyoon: lets not talk about that
dark angel: heehhe. com'n consider it as a joke n lng.
jaefenyoon: but not a good one
dark angel: ok im sorry. mas enjoy qng tatawanan n lng natin yun. hehe. kesa umiyak at malungkot pa.
jaefenyoon: sorry
jaefenyoon: it all have to come into this
dark angel: hehe ok lng yun. im ok now. let's just be happy
dark angel: dba? hehe
jaefenyoon: you sure?!
dark angel: i guess i am ehehe
dark angel: na accept ko na kasi na di mo ssbihin sakin. so di na aq mag iinsist
jaefenyoon: thanks for understanding
dark angel: atleast i get the chance to talk to you. without me asking qng anu ngyari before. hehe
dark angel: you still online after 30mins?
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw ok. den til next time again ?
jaefenyoon: still
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw. great. thenm goodbye then
jaefenyoon: bye
dark angel is typing...
dark angel: btw. she's pretty you two look really good together
jaefenyoon: thanks
dark angel signed out
there, I've been really stupid! I wanted to say "it would look good if its WAS you." but I know that I can't and should not!
Darn, I just hope she won't find this blog.
To you dark angel, I hope you find true happiness with him. I know something romantic is going between the two of them. I must admit, I am jealous. But my jealousy won't do me any good.
Finally, I want to tell you I STILL LOVE YOU. But I can only say this from a far. Just in the shadow. Here, in complete oblivion.
jaefenyoon: hi
jaefenyoon: who's he?
dark angel: he's a close friend of mine who just graduated from college
dark angel: and who's she?
jaefenyoon: looks like you're too close with each other
jaefenyoon: i mean
jaefenyoon: literally
jaefenyoon:
dark angel: hehe. and it you, with that girls seems literally close too
dark angel: *alisin mo na yung it
jaefenyoon: she's a close friend also
jaefenyoon: same with yours
dark angel: is she your fiance?
jaefenyoon: is he your borfriend?
dark angel: nope. defntly not.
jaefenyoon: just the same
dark angel: hehehe. so what have you been doing lately?
jaefenyoon: nothing
jaefenyoon: just studying
dark angel: business related course i guess?
jaefenyoon: at last
dark angel: at last? hehe
jaefenyoon: at last
jaefenyoon: i get the chance to take my own course
dark angel: which is?
dark angel: so? have you been blogging after your 1st blog?
jaefenyoon: no
dark angel: why?
jaefenyoon: just dont feel like to
dark angel: you lost interest in posting
jaefenyoon: its not that
jaefenyoon: i just dont feel to
dark angel: i just thought you created a new one. and maybe by chance i could read it so that i would know what happened to your life. but i guess you dont have one
jaefenyoon: it would be better if you wont know if i have a new one
jaefenyoon: how about you?
jaefenyoon: you still blogging?
dark angel: nah i've lost my drive in posting to my blog
jaefenyoon: may i ask why?
dark angel: i dunno. sigh
jaefenyoon: okay
dark angel: di ka na ngrply sa emails ko b4. hehehe
dark angel: iniiwasan mo si mga hapot ko dmn? hehe.
jaefenyoon: you and your friend look good together
dark angel: it would really look good if it is you hahaha
dark angel: banat alert!
dark angel:
jaefenyoon: please
jaefenyoon: lets not talk about that
dark angel: heehhe. com'n consider it as a joke n lng.
jaefenyoon: but not a good one
dark angel: ok im sorry. mas enjoy qng tatawanan n lng natin yun. hehe. kesa umiyak at malungkot pa.
jaefenyoon: sorry
jaefenyoon: it all have to come into this
dark angel: hehe ok lng yun. im ok now. let's just be happy
dark angel: dba? hehe
jaefenyoon: you sure?!
dark angel: i guess i am ehehe
dark angel: na accept ko na kasi na di mo ssbihin sakin. so di na aq mag iinsist
jaefenyoon: thanks for understanding
dark angel: atleast i get the chance to talk to you. without me asking qng anu ngyari before. hehe
dark angel: you still online after 30mins?
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw ok. den til next time again ?
jaefenyoon: still
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw. great. thenm goodbye then
jaefenyoon: bye
dark angel is typing...
dark angel: btw. she's pretty you two look really good together
jaefenyoon: thanks
dark angel signed out
there, I've been really stupid! I wanted to say "it would look good if its WAS you." but I know that I can't and should not!
Darn, I just hope she won't find this blog.
To you dark angel, I hope you find true happiness with him. I know something romantic is going between the two of them. I must admit, I am jealous. But my jealousy won't do me any good.
Finally, I want to tell you I STILL LOVE YOU. But I can only say this from a far. Just in the shadow. Here, in complete oblivion.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
More than thank you
When I opened my other account, I received an e-mail from her and here's what it say's:
Jem,
Advance Happy Birthday
Hope it would be a good one.
I guess I don't need to hear your voice if you don't want to.
Just your reply would do
She sent me that e-mail yesterday. When I read that message, I have a lot of things that I wanted to tell her. But I know that would just hurt her more than I had hurt her now. So just to be casual, I replied a simple "Thanks". But that's not the only thing I wanted to tell her.
I want to tell her more. To explain everything. But... Never mind, you guys won't understand!
P.S.
She's currently online in Yahoo Messenger and I am tempted to buzz her up!
Jem,
Advance Happy Birthday
Hope it would be a good one.
I guess I don't need to hear your voice if you don't want to.
Just your reply would do
She sent me that e-mail yesterday. When I read that message, I have a lot of things that I wanted to tell her. But I know that would just hurt her more than I had hurt her now. So just to be casual, I replied a simple "Thanks". But that's not the only thing I wanted to tell her.
I want to tell her more. To explain everything. But... Never mind, you guys won't understand!
P.S.
She's currently online in Yahoo Messenger and I am tempted to buzz her up!
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