Messenger

I just had my latest Y!Messenger with her. I wasn't about to reply with her message but I was attracted by the fact that her profile picture was with somebody else. So I replied with her message. Here's the complete transcript:

jaefenyoon: hi
jaefenyoon: who's he?
dark angel: he's a close friend of mine who just graduated from college
dark angel: and who's she?
jaefenyoon: looks like you're too close with each other
jaefenyoon: i mean
jaefenyoon: literally
jaefenyoon:
dark angel: hehe. and it you, with that girls seems literally close too
dark angel: *alisin mo na yung it
jaefenyoon: she's a close friend also
jaefenyoon: same with yours
dark angel: is she your fiance?
jaefenyoon: is he your borfriend?
dark angel: nope. defntly not.
jaefenyoon: just the same
dark angel: hehehe. so what have you been doing lately?
jaefenyoon: nothing
jaefenyoon: just studying
dark angel: business related course i guess?
jaefenyoon: at last
dark angel: at last? hehe
jaefenyoon: at last
jaefenyoon: i get the chance to take my own course
dark angel: which is?
dark angel: so? have you been blogging after your 1st blog?
jaefenyoon: no
dark angel: why?
jaefenyoon: just dont feel like to
dark angel: you lost interest in posting
jaefenyoon: its not that
jaefenyoon: i just dont feel to
dark angel: i just thought you created a new one. and maybe by chance i could read it so that i would know what happened to your life. but i guess you dont have one
jaefenyoon: it would be better if you wont know if i have a new one
jaefenyoon: how about you?
jaefenyoon: you still blogging?
dark angel: nah i've lost my drive in posting to my blog
jaefenyoon: may i ask why?
dark angel: i dunno. sigh
jaefenyoon: okay
dark angel: di ka na ngrply sa emails ko b4. hehehe
dark angel: iniiwasan mo si mga hapot ko dmn? hehe.
jaefenyoon: you and your friend look good together
dark angel: it would really look good if it is you hahaha
dark angel: banat alert!
dark angel:
jaefenyoon: please
jaefenyoon: lets not talk about that
dark angel: heehhe. com'n consider it as a joke n lng.
jaefenyoon: but not a good one
dark angel: ok im sorry. mas enjoy qng tatawanan n lng natin yun. hehe. kesa umiyak at malungkot pa.
jaefenyoon: sorry
jaefenyoon: it all have to come into this
dark angel: hehe ok lng yun. im ok now. let's just be happy
dark angel: dba? hehe
jaefenyoon: you sure?!
dark angel: i guess i am ehehe
dark angel: na accept ko na kasi na di mo ssbihin sakin. so di na aq mag iinsist
jaefenyoon: thanks for understanding
dark angel: atleast i get the chance to talk to you. without me asking qng anu ngyari before. hehe
dark angel: you still online after 30mins?
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw ok. den til next time again ?
jaefenyoon: still
jaefenyoon: im not sure
dark angel: aw. great. thenm goodbye then
jaefenyoon: bye
dark angel is typing...
dark angel: btw. she's pretty you two look really good together
jaefenyoon: thanks

dark angel signed out

there, I've been really stupid! I wanted to say "it would look good if its WAS you." but I know that I can't and should not!

Darn, I just hope she won't find this blog.

To you dark angel, I hope you find true happiness with him. I know something romantic is going between the two of them. I must admit, I am jealous. But my jealousy won't do me any good.

Finally, I want to tell you I STILL LOVE YOU. But I can only say this from a far. Just in the shadow. Here, in complete oblivion.