Its a fact that I am Stubborn

I am stubborn! That what I know!

I know I am being hurt by his presence, and yet, here I am, trying to be cool but I know that I really look like a fool and a complete IDIOT!

DARN!

Why can't I just start to totally forget about her? Why can't I get her rid of my mind! I still have some sleepless nights thinking about her. There even came a time that I wanted to visit her school just for the hope of seeing her there, evengthough I know it would be impossible. At first I thought I can't resist the temptation of looking for her when I know I'm just a few kilometers away from Naga.

Now, here I am, so destraught after seeing their picture. It so freaking hurt and I didn't even noticed that I cried. Even upto now, tears still falling from my eyes. But I guess I cannot blame you. I cannot blame you to fall to someone else, after what I have done. After the pain and tears that I caused you. After breaking my promise. My promise to be your strength, your hope and to keep you faith when you think its starting to subside. My promise that you'll never be hurt anymore, that I'll give you my word, my heart. That I will take you in my arm and hold you tight and feel my love. BUt all of it I failed to fulfill.

I cannot blame you. I know, I have no right to blame you.

I know that I don't cause I know for a fact that I am stubborn!