Memories

It's been a long time since I smiled.
All my life I'm waiting,
I don't know why I persist doing this
When I can move on and keep going.

But I won't deplore all those days
When I think of you every night.
Even shedding those bloody tears,
And all I need is a hug so tight.

I tried to stay away from you
But never to a point of trying to hate you.
I know I'm being hard on myself
Yet it's the right thing to do.

I started to admire another girl,
And see the rest of the world with her.
But I cannot live a life full of ties,
For I thought it's you even when I grow old.

And suddenly I grew tired.
So helpless that I cried.
I don't want anymore pain
O God, I think I'm going insane !

And finally I realized something -
Life isn't only crying.
To move one, I have to let go.
These feelings of mine for you to grow.

"It's not the end of the world, my dear,"
Mom said to me.
"So get up and dry those tears,
There are so many things around you that
you must see."

Now I hope everything would be fine.
To learn to accept facts and wait for the
right time.
Little by little I'm letting go (I'll try to let go),
Hope it makes me happy to do so (but it would be hard).

To end this poem, I want you to know,
You've been so special to me that it's hard
to let you go.
I know forever in my heart you'll always be here.
but only to remain as a cherished memory.