Never Apologize

"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth."

Thats what I realize for the past few days I've been bed-ridden due to this ailment of mine. I don't know if I realized this thing because I just did, or because my brain's getting big now! He he.

Now, why should I say sorry? After all, that's the truth. A truth that would be so hard to deny. I still have feelings for her. And so what? I'll be keeping that one, at least, I know for my self that I was able to love someone so dearly that I don't care about myself anymore. Unselfishly. Okay, only on my part.

At least, I've been completely honest to Caroline when I told her that I still love Gem, and that my feeling for her (Caroline) is something lesser than that of Gem. At first, I thought we already cleared things out, but I was wrong. In the end, we broke up. Our only connection? Our baby. Nothing more, nothing less.

Now, back with my feelings. I've been thinking, even if I won't pursue Gem, [which, by the way, is what I'm going to do :) ] I'd still continue to enjoy the feeling I am feeling right now, until the time comes that I would be tired and give up. For the meantime, LET THE LOVING FEELING continue!

:)