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i must admit i am letting the world drown me. the busy people, the cool pictures, the seemingly idealistic points of view (some of which i don't understand even, i feel stupid then), the mountains of joyous hi's, hello's and many more...everyone's in ecstasy or at least, everyone has the ability to show happiness...i, on the other hand, JUST CAN'T do so.. .4 hours ago clear it has gotten so extreme...i get easily distracted and now i get easily afraid...taking baby steps to move on - i've had enough of that. i need a little shortcut. m spoiling the pain that much and i shouldn't wait until it completely eats the entire of me...